Baby Blues
I’m not sure if this will become a post or if it’s just for therapeutic purposes, type it out to get it out of the system. I had a wonderful pregnancy. I was happier than I’ve ever been, but the shock of our baby being born so early (37w, 4d) rather than the 40 weeks put my mind into a weird scary, fearful zone. After the baby was born, I felt disconnected, empty. This is the reason for this journal post. To sort through the emotions. Greg calls me “Evil Aleta” during this time. Not because I’m angry or yelling. But when we came home with our baby, all I did was cry. It bothered both of us and we worried about post partum depression. EA (Evil Aleta) is probably a good term, because of the thoughts going through my head, again, not angry, but negative. You know those cartoons where you have an angel on your shoulder and a devil on the other shoulder whispering thoughts to you? All I was hearing was the EA....