Fleur de Aleta

We are going to my grandmother's home in Zachary, LA (country land outside of Baton Rouge).  My Dad's side of the family hasn't seen our son, other than my grandmother (my son's only living great grandparent).  I'm sure Gregory will be passed from arm to arm :) In the meantime, here are some Easter pictures to share.  When I took the pictures, Greg Sr. said, "I have to stop this."  But he was smiling and helped me with the pictures. I sent out birth announcements and these two pictures were on them.  I couldn't resist :) Wishing you and yours a Happy Easter!

I wasn't the perfect daughter, sibling or wife.  I won't be the perfect mommy.  I never expect to be, though I want to be the perfect mommy for our son.  Judgment is passed so easily from others, if I'm doing the right things by him, even the right things by me.  I never realized that being a mommy suddenly puts you under the microscope. I think moms are hard enough on themselves already without the social scrutiny and stone throwing. And even though I'm sleep deprived, working through baby blues and recovering from surgery, the only person on this earth that I feel won't judge me and loves me right now and in this moment without seeing my faults and finding me lacking.. is my son.  My beautiful sweet angel. Thank you, my little boy, for loving me without judgement.  I'm sure one day there will come a time when you too will join the ranks and judge me, but for now, I'll treasure these times of pure love.  If we could all be a little more heaven s...

I'm so incredibly sad.  I just can't imagine what Erica must be going through.  My cousin, Kevin, and his girlfriend were pregnant the same time I was... their due date was 2 months after mine. She had a difficult pregnancy with constant morning, noon, night sickness.  She wanted a little girl and found out that's what they were expecting.  They had her name picked out. Erica was 31 weeks pregnant when she was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago, due to preeclampsia. I was so shocked when they released her after keeping her in the hospital for a couple of days.  It seemed the blood pressure scare at such an early point in her pregnancy.. that they would keep her longer or schedule a c section, but they didn't... Erica and my cousin went home and had a follow up doctor's appointment.  They lost their baby, being called stillbirth because she was that far into the pregnancy.   It broke my heart to hear the news.  They had to do a c section...

One of the bloggers listed those "Five Friday Question" things and one of the questions.. can't remember the exact question... but the question went along the lines of "What is something you wish you didn't have to teach you child?" For me.. I wish I'd never have to teach my little boy about why people are cruel.  I want to wrap him in a bubble and keep him safe from the world.  I know that's not possible.  I know one day someone will say something mean or hurtful to him and I will go all Momma Bear.

Yesterday, Gregory made one month old.  It feels like yesterday that we brought him home.  He has grown so much already. For his one month old, Gregory showered me with projectile spit up.. I think it was the entire bottles worth.  Then, he gave me this look..... He looks like he's saying, "Sorry Mommy."  And after that.... a bunch of smiles... I couldn't leave out this last picture.... I call it the "Elvis grin"