Friday, March 29, 2013

Not Perfect

I wasn't the perfect daughter, sibling or wife.  I won't be the perfect mommy.  I never expect to be, though I want to be the perfect mommy for our son.  Judgment is passed so easily from others, if I'm doing the right things by him, even the right things by me.  I never realized that being a mommy suddenly puts you under the microscope.

I think moms are hard enough on themselves already without the social scrutiny and stone throwing.

And even though I'm sleep deprived, working through baby blues and recovering from surgery, the only person on this earth that I feel won't judge me and loves me right now and in this moment without seeing my faults and finding me lacking.. is my son.  My beautiful sweet angel.

Thank you, my little boy, for loving me without judgement.  I'm sure one day there will come a time when you too will join the ranks and judge me, but for now, I'll treasure these times of pure love.  If we could all be a little more heaven sent like babies...





My son's great grandmother, Maw Maw, asked for the below picture.  She wanted to see him as a farm boy.  I could't resist the cowboy boots!


Love his little hands.


8 comments:

The Forscheins said...

A sweet post! I agree with you, when a lady becomes a mom, all of a sudden everybody wants to be a part of every decision you make. Critics pop up from unexpected places and the pressure is high. It's unfortunate because it takes a village to raise a child and we really need support from other moms! From the pictures and stories I read, I think you're doing awesome together with Greg. The overwhelming amount of love you have for your baby already shines through Gregory in his calm and happy demeanor in the pictures. Great job Aleta! Keep it up and enjoy your little heavenly angel. Life is at it's best with a sweet baby in the house.

Mari said...

Such sweet pictures!

SkyMommy said...

The love you have will be perfection enough. He is so adorable.

Laurel @Let's Go on a Picnic! said...

You would be welcome in our blogging group. All of us are different, but we agree to disagree and support each other.

Cheryl said...

Your pictures are so cute. He is such a pretty baby.

Yes, people love to judge on so many things. Seems to be a rampant part of our society. I used to let it hurt my feelings when I sensed I was being judged for anything dealing with motherhood. I now realize that I knew my children and how our family works better than people on the outside. It all turned out fine.

You and Greg will know how to handle all the important things to be good parents to little Gregory.

Little Gregory is quite lucky to be wanted, loved and cared for by parents that adore him.

Lilly said...

A very true post Aleta. Gregory is such an adorable and beautiful baby. You are very special too as is your wonderful partner Greg. Just remember there is no right way. Trust your instincts and follow your own path. Everyone is always full of good advice. We can't help ourselves but Mommy knows best. Always. Hope you are doing well and recovering after your surgery. It's a big deal. Xx

Cyndy Newsome said...

You have the right attitude already. Dont get sucked into the Competitive Parenting Games. They're vicious and there are no winners.

lailani said...

Congratulations!! I have been away from blogland too long...what a fun to see the beautiful addition to your family. He is so wonderfully cute!