Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Baby Thoughts

My husband asked me, "What do you like most about being a Mom?"

I replied, "I love holding the baby when he is sleeping."  It's a peaceful feeling.

My husband was a little surprised.  He said, "I thought you would say that you love that he's like a doll or that you have the responsibility of raising a baby."

I don't remember playing with a lot of baby dolls when I was little (Barbie dolls, now that's different) and I wasn't around a lot of babies when I was growing up.  I don't see Gregory as a doll.  He's a living being.

As for the responsibility, that scares the daylights out of me.  I worry about raising him properly, about making sure he knows how much he is loved, about being able to guide him spiritually, to know that he will enjoy his childhood, to be sure he develops a love of education, I pray he falls in love and is loved in return and has a good, healthy, happy life.

All those things I want for our baby boy and more and that scares me, because I want it so much for him, I could cry.  Ok, that may be the hormones, right?


Laurel @Let's Go on a Picnic! said...

I love the peace of a sleeping child too. Unfortunately, holding a sleeping one of mine is like holding a box of bowling balls on your chest.

He's showing so much personality already!

Cheryl said...

There isn't anything better than holding a sleeping baby. As for the scary part of thinking about raising him be assured that there is so much fun in raising a child as well. Things have a way of balancing out.

Cyndy Newsome said...

My kids are almost 20, 17, and 12 and I STILL tear up when I think of how much I love them.
It's a mama thing and I'm so glad you are experiencing it!!

Glynis Jolly said...

Aleta, I think this is your greatest post so far. You say so much about how you see things, what you are thinking, and how you feel. You're a terrific mom. Truly!

Lilly said...

What a wonderful Mother you are. It is an amazing feeling. And you will feel like that the rest of your life. I love Gregory's hair. Gorgeous colour. And how are the new grandparents holding up.