I wanted to blurt it out the minute he walked in the door, but more importantly, I wanted it to be a special moment for my husband to treasure. Even though his workday was over, he still had reports to finish up on his computer. While he did this, I prepared a simple meal, baked chicken and a side salad. It gave me something to do with my nerves.
For a little while, I second guessed telling him that night, because he became frustrated over a complication with the report. I thought to myself, "I definitely don't want to tell him while he's in a negative frame of mind. I want this to be positive."
Because he was focused on the phone call to fix the report issue, Greg didn't see me walk into the office and take out a long shaped jewelry box. I brought the box into the bedroom, put the gift inside, bow on top and no tape. Which is totally unlike me. I'm the Tape Queen, but I didn't want my husband to get annoyed with the tape. Positive was the theme, so no tape.
After supper and talking routine stuff, we put the dishes away. I suggested a cup of coffee for him and went to get the gift. Handing it to him, "This is an early birthday gift." Greg replied, "My birthday isn't until Monday. It can't wait?"
"No. It's not something that can wait." He shook the box, which I just knew he would do. "You shouldn't do that."
He opened the box and stared... for an extra moment. Eyes went wide and in an incredulous tone, he asked, "Oh my God! Does this mean you're pregnant!"
I was laughing and crying and nodding my head yes. He jumped out of his chair, laughing, saying how wonderful this was, giving me a hug. It was a beautiful moment. His reaction was the best and exactly what I hoped for and needed.
He looked at the pregnancy test and said, "Are you sure?"
My husband had good reason to second guess. After all, a year and a half ago, a specialist told us that we had 2 percent chance EACH MONTH - 2 percent chance of getting pregnant. The specialist thought we should do IVF and use a donor egg, but after research and thoughtful consideration, we decided that this wasn't the path for us. We accepted that we wouldn't have children and could still be very happy with just the two of us and a cat and dog :)
The pregnancy test I used was from Rite Aid, using the store brand, because I didn't want to spend a lot of money on a test that I figured would show negative, as it had so many other times in the past.
You'd think the missed period would be the clue, but my body isn't the most regular. Even the upset stomach wasn't my clue, because I get sinus problems that lead to a sinus drip and that upsets my stomach. It was my sense of smell that kicked into over drive that gave me the heads up.
EVERYTHING was on ultra smell like never before. But even then, I didn't believe.. I just figured I was trying to fool myself or something, so I took the test without much thought. When I saw the results, I kept flipping back to the instructions, muttering to myself, "Two blue lines means pregnant!"
Then I freaked out! I couldn't call Greg as he was at work. That would be too impersonal and I still didn't trust the test. It was a cheap store brand. My blood pressure was going bonkers and I had to do something... I called my good friend, Kristen. She understood how I felt and suggested that I go see her Mom, an RN that works in a medical clinic. She could give me a pregnancy test that was reliable.
I did this.... and Kristen's Mom said, "You are DEFINITELY pregnant." The blue line on the test strip went to positive within seconds.
After explaining all of this to Greg, he felt better about the results. I told him how I set an appointment to see the OBGYN the next morning. He took off of work so that he could be there with me for the appointment. He understood my concerns and worries... my age, my high blood pressure... and the past when I miscarried and the baby didn't have a heartbeat (over 10 years ago).
Greg was incredibly supportive and said, "We will proceed with a cautious frame in mind." But happy, yes very happy :)
At the OBGYN's office they took another urine test - yes, positive. Did bloodwork. AND did an ultrasound! We were able to see and hear the baby's heartbeat. How beautiful! The baby is, as of today's date of this blog post - 9 weeks old. EDD is early March.
Below is a picture of the sonogram. While conducting the ultrasound, the nurse saved it on a DVD. I put some of the ultrasound on YouTube, which should be below the picture.
We're asking for prayers for a healthy baby and healthy pregnancy :)
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