Sledgehammer

One of my FB friends recently asked me, "Are you OK, Aleta? Haven't heard from you in a while." She reads my blog mostly, because I'm not one to typically write on FB. Another friend emailed me the same thing and Greg has asked, "Are you going to update your blog?"


I wasn't honest with myself or them, because I simply said, "I'm blogged out from doing a blog post a day last month. I'm taking a break." That was a lie.


When I read about bloggers MIA, they will come back and say, "Life got busy, sorry." They don't give details and I understand a little too well.


For me ~ It's about work. It's more than a typical stressful day, more than the economy. There's a lot of struggle going on, a ton of tension pressing down on my heart, the knowledge of instability leading to financial difficulties with an unknown plan. I wish I could bury my head in the sand. I wish I didn't know what I know, but then, at least... I do know it... but it's not good. And I'm not in a position to change it, just to know about it.


Emotionally, it's taking a hard toll on me. Financially, I can't even type it out.


That's about the max I can share. There are too many IRL people that know me and if you are one of them, please don't ask because I cannot discuss it any further. I'm sorry that I wasn't honest to begin with; I don't like to burden people.


I can only ask for positive thoughts and prayers. If you don't hear from me for a while, please know it's not because "life got busy" it's because life is throwing a sledgehammer.